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Things Are Not OK

by Love's Armada

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A beautiful, heartwarming response to a heartbreaking tragedy. I truly hope this work of art provides healing for all involved. Respect to the family.

..never give up
never give in
never let go
never slow down
give it all you got
for that last spot in the minivan

never say never
never be alone
never get lost
never cheap out
its never too late
give it all you got
for that last spot in the minivan...

Favorite track: Empty Spot in the Minivan.
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1.
Can you get something for nothing If nothing is all you got Sit down I'll tell you a story A story of how I go shot Shot through the heart with a dagger Or maybe an old metal spoon When you lose the life of a loved one It feels like your heart broke in two Don't go down that path It's dangerous, it's dangerous Can you get something from nothing I don't think you can Don't bring up the past It's dangerous, it's dangerous Don't attempt something from nothing Cause that's not the plan Don't stop Have faith Keep it up You're doing great You know the story Let it out It's therapy I remember it was Wednesday A Wednesday night that was so dark I wasn't paying attention As he left the parking lot He took a right at the exit I took a left in my car He rode a kid's bike for miles I went the wrong way too far I called my wife minutes later Told her I just lost our son She said we should start a search party This isn't the first time he's run Two hundred people were searching Searching for my son in vain Hit by a truck on the freeway While he was crossing the lanes I said don't down that path It's dangerous, it's dangerous Can you get something from nothing I don't think you can Don't bring up the past It's dangerous, It's dangerous Don't attempt something from nothing Cause that's not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan What was the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan What was the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan What was the plan This was not the plan Can you get something from nothing When nothing is all that you got Now let me tell you a story A story of how I got shot Shot through the heart with a dagger Or maybe an old metal spoon When you lose the life of a loved one It feels like your heart's torn in two This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan This was not the plan What was the plan This was not the plan
2.
Go Things are not OK Getting pulled on by strings I'm starting to lose my strength I need to start thinking Outside the box Outside the box Outside the box Outside the box Outside the box Outside the box Outside the box Outside the box Outside the box Outside the box Outside the box Outside the box Outside the box Outside the box Outside the box Outside the box Just when you thought you lost everything Just when you thought you lost everything You gain everything You gain everything, You gain everything Just when you thought you lost everything Just when you thought you lost everything You gain everything You gain everything, You gain everything Just when you thought you lost everything Just when you thought you lost everything You gain everything You gain everything, You gain everything Just when you thought you lost everything Just when you thought you lost everything You gain everything You gain everything Stop Things could get worse (That's impossible) Someone could steal your purse It has your ID and your credit card It's time to stay inside the box Inside the box Inside the box Inside the box Inside the box Inside the box Inside the box Inside the box Inside the box Inside the box Inside the box Inside the box Inside the box Inside the box Inside the box Inside the box Inside the box Inside the box Inside the box Inside the box Inside the box Inside the box Just when you thought you lost everything Just when you thought you lost everything You gain everything You gain everything, You gain everything Just when you thought you lost everything Just when you thought you lost everything You gain everything You gain everything, You gain everything Just when you thought you lost everything Just when you thought you lost everything You gain everything You gain everything, You gain everything Just when you thought you lost everything Just when you thought you lost everything You gain everything You gain everything, You gain everything Stop
3.
How do you move forward When you walk through the door And your heart's on the floor And you can't do any more How do you remember All the good times you had When your feeling so sad Because death makes you mad How do you forgive me For the mistakes I have made And all the debts I haven't paid Because I'm scared and afraid How do I find hope now In the face of despair Because life isn't fair (Well what are you going to do about it. Just cry?) Yes Never give up Never give in Never let go Never slow down Never let up Give it all you got For that empty spot in the minivan Never say never Never be alone Never get lost Never cheap out It's never too late Give it all you got For that empty spot in the minivan In the minivan In the minivan Where is tomorrow When I'm done with today Can I please get away Is it too much to ask Where is my witness That my life will go on After my life is done I can be with my son Please give me strength now To face another day of loss Cause I can't bear the cost (Hey bro, do you want to watch some Bob Ross with me?) Yeah sure Never give up Never give in Never let go Never slow down Never let up Give it all you got For that empty spot in the minivan Never say never Never be alone Never get lost Never cheap out It's never too late Give it all you got For that empty spot in the minivan Never lose hope Never lose faith Never doubt Always fight For that empty spot in the minivan I will keep myself at home With those I love I'm not alone It's safe inside these stucco walls We'll watch Bob Ross and sing old songs I think I'll move forward As I walk through the door And pick my heart up off the floor And try to do a little more I think I'll remember All the good times we had And I'll be a little sad Because death feels bad I think you'll forgive me For the mistakes I have made For all the debts I will pay I won't be scared or afraid I think I'll find hope now In the face of despair It turns out that I care (Hey man, do you ever cry when watching Bob Ross?) Every time Never give up Never give in Never let go Never slow down Never let up Give it all you got For that empty spot in the minivan Never say never Never be alone Never get lost Never cheap out It's never too late Give it all you got For that empty spot in the minivan Never give up Never give in Never let go Never slow down Never let up Give it all you got For that empty spot in the minivan Never say never Never be alone Never get lost Never cheap out It's never too late Give it all you got For that empty spot in the minivan Never lose hope Never lose faith Never doubt Always fight For that empty spot in the minivan
4.
Mosters Under my bed (Look out for the boogie man) I toss Too and fro (I never get any sleep) Trapped Inside of head (I can't get out, I can't get out, I can't get out) Perhaps I should let go (Let it go, let it go) Just not today Fatigue (Well that's a big word) Enters my bones I just (Just what) Want to rest (So go find a bed) I should (No you shouldn't, No you shouldn't) Go for a walk (And get some fresh air) And try (No you shouldn't, No you shouldn't) To do my best (No you shouldn't, No you shouldn't) Just not today I'll be your friend I'll make amends I'll play pretend Just not today I'll turn around I'll make it count Just not today I'll be OK Just not today I'll be OK Breath A little bit more (Who shut off all the oxygen) I got (You got what) Lot's to do (Well that's not true) Get up (But I don't want to) Off the floor (Please just let me stay here) I need (I thought you never needed anything To see this through (No you shouldn't, No you shouldn't) Just not today I'll be right here I'll show no fear I'll volunteer Just not today I'll clean my mess I'll look my best Just not today (Just not today) Just not today (Just not today) Just not today (Just not today) Is that OK (Just not today) Just not today I'll be your friend I'll make amends I'll play pretend Just not today I'll turn around I'll make it count I'll flip my frown Just not today I'll be right here I'll show no fear I'll volunteer Just not today I'll clean my mess I'll look my best I'll do the rest Just not today Please do not worry About what I say This won't last forever There will come a day When all of my grief And all of my pain And all of my sadness Will be washed away It won't be tomorrow Or maybe this year Somehow I will make it There's nothing to fear I'm told this is normal When black turns to gray But this I can tell you It's just not today

about

This four track EP explore the immediate grief, sadness, and pain after the tragic death of my 15-year-old son Everett. Everett had moderate/sever autism and was a runner. On Wednesday, March 15th, Everett left the parking lot of a church event and died that same evening on a freeway nine miles west from where I lost him.

These songs are a form of therapy, helping me cope with the guilt of losing Everett while under my watch. Creating these songs helped me to process his death, mine and my wife's life after the loss of our child, and the conflict between giving up and moving forward.

Listeners be warned, this EP does not provide any resolution to this type of grief and the songs are not easy to listen to. But they are written to provide solace and a sense of connection to those who face similar struggles as well as provide outsiders a glimpse into the mind of the grieving.

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released September 14, 2023

Vocals - Silas Molino
Guitar - Silas Molino
Bass - Silas Molino
Drums - Silas Molino
Mixed by: Silas Molino
Mastered in: Silas' bedroom

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Love's Armada Redlands, California

I have no music career, just a hobby. I enjoy creating music that magnifies the juxtaposition between despair and hope.

We live in a world with unavoidable tragedies. I believe that all we want is to find hope amongst the sadness.
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